AHINI!

OH NO! OH YES!

AHINI!

Okay okay.. So everything was normal on Monday til after Chinese Week, our class teacher came in with a mask and ask whoever that have flu to go junior hall. The minister of health came and took blood test. We were so freaking happy coz we thought school's gona close! But then they say results will only come out 24 hours later. Anyhow, i took this excuse to skip school on Tuesday. To fetch my daddy from airport also la. So once Sya got home on Tuesday i sms-ed her to ask whether they have announce that school's gona close. But bad news.. It's not.

So today I went to school. In the morning everything was normal, except that we kept discussing when is school gona close. After break, Ms. Serena asked us to go find _____ to pack his bag and straight away go to the counselling room. I never once suspected that it was H1N1. I thought he did something wrong. I was the one to talk to him. =O

So after that we went back to our class for Econs. But we were shocked coz our Econs class changed to a Senior 2 class. Then we asked why. They say our class got a suspected case. Im like.. "Oh no.. It must be him" and right after Econs, Pn Aishah came into our class and ask us to all call parents and go home. So we wrote down our parents numbers and we were forced to be quarantined in the class til our parents came. Right after that, they decided to call all students to go home. So everyone was panicking. and most were cheering.

SCHOOL CLOSED FOR A WEEK!

Actually, I'm kinda happy.. BUT! I won't be able to go for the Port Dickson trip this weekend with the other KK leaders, my KK sisters. =(

HE SO SICK D COME SCHOOL FOR WHAT! ISH.. and i just found out he was told NOT to come to school. IDIOT! Sneaked to school. Selfish person. MY GOD LA.. he doesn't even come to school to study. SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP in class.. Came to school to infect everyone else. Exams coming some more. ISH! and my parents are also pissed off at the school, and the ___. DAMN HIM

ISH! I WANA GO PD! ARGH!

Bang-ing off,
Tenggg

Happy Birthday RAI!

Happy birthday my dear Grandson!

I don't know what else to say to you, but please take care of yourself and hope you'll be annoying me soon again =) Kinda misses my grandson. Felt sad and worried for you too.. Hope that i could be there for you too even though I am useless to you. =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Bang-ing off,
Tenggg

Weekend

PHEW! A hectic weekend..

Fri 24/7
We had a mini carnival in school. We prefects did haunted house and the business was GOOOD! Hahaha.. Had a lot of fun skipping class to help out with it and jaga-ing the ticket booth on friday. Got kids cried and a girl fainted. Me, drew went in last together with Fong Yu, Yoke Kien, Vincent. The ghosts knew it was us so started to pull our legs once we got in. I was laughing the whole way as Drew kena bully. Haha.. It was fun.

The whole day me and Drew kept eating only. Bought a lot of food and we were playing scissors paper stone to win the french fries. Had a great time with him =) thanks baby =D


=D

Sat 25/7
We had KL Law Olympiad competition in Help University. Our school sent 2 teams. Im in team B together with Meng Shiun, Syafi and Kah Haw. We were the only group to have 4 people as Michael FFK us. =( There was a total of 40 groups. We were just hoping to get at least top20. But in the end, we got 7th! =D Emily Cheah's group got 5th.

It was fun la.. More like playing games than competition. Mostly about logic and also general knowledge. Photos will upload next time when Syafi send to me. =D

After that we had prefect dinner in Sime Darby Convention Centre. A restaurant named Halia. But the food was GREAT! Damn nice.. Got choc fountain again. =) Had fun taking loads of pictures. =D

Sun 26/7
Just came back from kaikan. Had a performance for Experience Meet. Teacher said we did very well! =D After that i followed Pam's family to get her dad's specs. Waited for an hour there and we camwhored there. hahaha.. Then had lunch and came home. Had a big fight with my idiot Guinness. Don't wana talk about it. ISH.. Kinda tired. Wana rest.. BYE!=D

Bang-ing off,
Tenggg~

BIO DISSECTION

We dissected rat and frogs on wednesday. I cried before doing it. LOOONGG STORY.. =D pics and videos in my class blog.

http://4sciencejoy.blogspot.com/

Bang-ing off,
Tenggg~

Sweet 16s

I would like to take this 20 mins left before I go for my practice to make a special post to wish all those birthday girls who just turned to SWEET 16!

JULY 17

Jane Liew Mun Yee: My dearest best friend! HAPPY SWEET 16! I don't know what else to say to you la since I always see u in school and always talk non-stop while teacher's teaching. HAHA! Remember to set a date to go out ya! We need to buy presents for you la.. =) and happy always with your so-called leng zai boyfriend. HAHA..[he's not lengzai. Drew's much more better looking.. MUAHAHA]

Sarah and Jane. =D

Amelin: Not gona put your fullname here since I know you don't like it. HAHA.. But you also tak tau i punya blog. So won't say anything here. =D HAPPY SWEET 16! Don't have a picture with ya. =(


JULY 24

Spring Koh Ghia Huei: Hey sexy blood-sucking vampire aka Mrs Edward Cullen. =D.. Happy Bloody 16! =D Liked my birthday kiss that i gave you yesterday? I know you wanted more. XD Sorry that i can't make it tomorrow. Enjoy ya babe! Misses ya and friends forever =)

Don't have a solo pic with ya.. =D

Leng, Teng, Mrs Cullen =D

Bang-ing off,
Tenggg

Photos

NESS!

Tracy and me

Family last walk =(

Rachel and me. Haha..

Bro's birthday cake

Bang-ing off,
Tenggg

Rosabel

I was on video call in msn with Rosabel yesterday as my sis and dad went to visit them. Rosabel is a best friend of mine in NZ. We always hang out together at her house and we're kinda like family friends too. =) It's been 5 years since I've talked or seen her. Because when i have left NZ out of a sudden, she didn't have internet access and stuff. I remember the video my parents brought back 5 years ago when they went back to NZ to bring back out belongings. In the video I saw a lot of my friends, and also Rosabel. I cried. I was sad to have left without a proper goodbye.

Yesterday when I was talking to her, it was kinda awkward. 5 years! Haha.. But it was really nice to be able to catch up with her. Her NZ accent was strong and I was wondering how could I possibly have spoken like that 5 years ago? But it'll be so cool to have that accent back. =)

From left: Rosabel, Auntie Dorine, Sis, Uncle Richard.

Bang-ing off,
Tenggg

Assessment

PHEW! FINALLY.. I've finished my assessment for 2010. I've been practicing yesterday the whole day. You know, It'da damn freaking hard to get into the live orchestra of 300 people. They need mostly strings. So for woodwind and brass, we have damn limited place. And i really meant LIMITED place. They only need 5 clarinetist. 5! and 1 bass clarinet. Damn.. And if they split into 2 sessions then maximum number of clarinets is only 10 and bass 2. It all depends on the main comm [I'm out of external main comm. came back to internal. Too much pressure]There are dunno 4 or 5 bands. Fei Yang Symphonic Band and GCO standard so high.. =(.. But I have confidence in me n my fellow comrades! FIGHTO!

I WANA BE IN 2010!

Gona chant lots lots already. =D But I guess I did well for both Bass clarinet and clarinet today. =D The judges were Lay Kheng and a composer from outside. =D IF this assessment you get category A/B then very big possibility can get in. If the places are not completely filled this assessment, then we're gona have audition in December.

Bang-ing off,
Tenggg

Career talk

Today we went Suria for a career talk/fair. I finally decided that I'm gona take forensics science and criminology. Ya.. I know you might think CSI had implanted that fantasy into my head. But seriously, this is something I wana do way before i even knew about CSI. All my life I've been attracted to mysteries and crimes. Guess I just wana help those innocent victims who died for no reason.

When I first went there, I wasn't that sure about it. I'm also afraid to let others know about it. The people from the booth [what are they called?]asked us to fill in enquiry form. Some asked what I was interested in. I was kind shy to tell out. =D But I went to the K-Smart booth where Jonathan Tee were. I told him and he explained a lot about it and that's where i found out about criminolgy. He said New zealand have the course. But not honours. But at least got la. Since I'm a Permanent Resident there, I better go there and study since its way cheaper.

But I'm kinda worried about something. Where will i work? I wana come back to Malaysia but the problem is, Malaysia has no future. =D at least for forensics la.. All covered up. I don't wana be a dirty Forensics. Well, another year for me to crack my brain about it. =D

Oh! and I was glad to see all my Suria friends again. =D some changed a lot. There were some that i had never seen for 4 freaking years. Fat to thin. Thin to macho. Ugly to handsome. HAHAHA.. When i went back there, brought back so much memories. I miss them.. All of them.. The times we had.. But one thing for sure, we'll always be Friends Forever.

I <3 you guys =D

Bang-ing off,

~Tenggg

Harder than i thought

I thought its gona be easy. I thought i will get used to it soon. But everyday i come home and alone, I just couldn't help but feel sad. I just couldn't stop the tears. I miss her a lot.. We miss her alot. My mom have been very sad. Today got an sms from my sis and she just suddenly cry. I was so shocked. I've never seen her like this. Such a big change for us. Whenever i see her things on the desk or even her shirts, my mood just goes straight down. I miss her. Trying to be strong for my mom. Left mom and me at home. Bro comes home late everynight coz of work. He's trying his best to spend more time with my mom. I just want her home again. I miss fighting with ehr for the slightest thing. I only can cry when I'm alone.

A new life

=( my sis just flew to New Zealand this afternoon. I MISS HER!
I spend my 16 years of life sleeping in the same room as her, going to the same school as her, joining kotekitai together with her, been nagged by parents together with her, bathed together, slept together, cried together. SHE'S LIKE MY TWIN! And now she's not gona be back til November for holidays and going back around February. WORSE! Her course is 3 years =(

Everytime when I'm down and can't keep it to myself anymore, I'll start hugging her and cry and she'll be comforting me the whole way. Now my room is empty. Just me and my stupid idioctic fierce dog, Guinness[mad at him coz he grr at me just now.. guess he's in a bad mood too]. Haiz.. gota get used to it.

If you're reading this[which I hope you wont.. kinda awkward.. never been so mushy to her], please take care of yourself! Remember to bring our Angels of Peace spirit over there! CLEAR TARGET, NEVER GIVE UP! and remember to study hard. Don't lepak lepak and waste daddy's money! =D But enjoy it too la.. I'll be joining you in 2 years time. =)

BYE! =D

Bang-ing off,
Tenggg~

Pictures

Just wanted to upload some random pictures =D

Tracy climbing on daddy

Tracy and meMe and jason's bro during HSD meeting

Sis's farewell

Today me and my family including my baby niece Tracy went to Neway at SS18. A final family outing before my sis flies to New Zealand tomorrow. =(

We sang like mad people. Big sis was doing her usual dramatic actions. Me and bro were acting like lovers and being dramatic while singing. We[whole family] shouted to songs by ABBA and Michael Jackson. HAHAHA.. As usual, mommy and daddy sang out of tune. XD.. Sis's bf was there too. We spend 3 hours there screaming, singing, dancing AND EATING! =D

ET and LT

Dad, Tracy, Sis

Bro
HAHA! Look at their faces

Mom and Tracy

We had FUN! =D I'm glad i have a harmonious family. =D

Bang-ing off,
Tenggg~

Never give up hope!

Dear.. I'm sorry for not being able to feel secure after you tried to assure me for trillions of times. Give me some time. I know I can do it. I know I will let go of the past, forgive you and start anew. I don't know how you did it and I'm really thankful that you had never really brought up about my past much.

We just kinda argued on the phone. I feel very bad and sad. I should just trust you fully and not ask so much. Sorry for making you drop your tears too. I'm trying to find back the hope and optimism i had when i accepted to be yours again just few days ago. Didn't know that such a small argument will pull me down. But thanks for not giving up.

So, like you said.. Let's fight together to find our happiness! I will be patient in waiting for this tough time to pass and I will be strong and go through this with you. Let's not let others affect us.. okay?

Found this quote on Words of Wisdom by Ikeda Sensei, my mentor in life. I love it. It captured my heart.

Even married people were once strangers. Therefore, without patience and the effort to understand one another, things are likely not to go well. We need patience in order to become happy.


There are many who dream about experiencing happiness without the patience. But that is a dream. And a dream is just that--a dream, a fairy tale. It is to wish for a childish, easy life. This illusion breaks up many marriages. The pursuit of such happiness can only make one miserable.


It is important to make the effort to calmly construct something together. From there, real love develops. Real marriage is when you have been married for twenty-five years and feel an even deeper love than you did when you first met. Love deepens. Love that does not is merely on the level of simple likes and dislikes.-Daisaku Ikeda

Bang-ing off,
Tengggg~

my first time

Dear... its my first time blogging. So bare with me. Hehe. I hope that this chance that is given to us will last forever. I am happy that I am with you again. teng. i want you to trust me. Thats all i am asking for.

****ing-off, hehe

Drew

Teng:[Fucking off? ... haha.. thanks dear]

Please

I thought you still haven't given up. I thought you will come to me and have a little chat with me. Break time was over. Nothing. Lunch time over. Nothing. The final chance was after school. Nothing.

But why should I hope? Why did i waited? Today, I finally understood. You are also exhausted right? I could only hold back my tears til when i left the school gate. I wished i could have hold it in longer.

Now, I only asked for one thing. Just one favor. Now that you had decided, please continue with it. Please don't start to give me hope and warmth again. Even If you see me depressed. Please.. I will be. But give me some time and I'll be okay. Please don't change your mind and make me go through the whole thing again. That's all i ask for.

I'm a bad kiddo

Tag 10 people after you're done!

I have. . . (a point for each one)

1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. tried drugs.
#MY TOTAL: 6

1. taken painkillers.
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. felt hurt.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.
#MY TOTAL:5
1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
5. received a ticket.
6. been to rehab
7. dyed your hair.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar
#MY TOTAL: 1

1. been to a wild party.
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade.
3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything
6. wore black nail polish
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. owned a 50 Cent CD.
#MY TOTAL: 3

1. dressed gothic
2. dressed girly.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed grunge.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.
#MY TOTAL: 1

1. had a crush on a friend.
2. been to a concert.
3. dry-humped someone.
4. been called a slut.
5. called someone a slut.
6. installed speakers in your car.
7. broken a mirror.
8. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
9. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
#MY TOTAL: 5

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.
#MY TOTAL: 3
1. owned/rented an apartment/house.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harassed.
10.been verbally harassed.
#MY TOTAL: 2

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drink and drive.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.
#MY TOTAL: 5

Grand Total: 31

If You Have Less Than 10.. write [im a Goody Goody]
If You Have More Than 10.. write [im still a goody goody]
If You Have more Than 20..write [im average]
If You Have More Than 30..write [im a bad kid]
If You have more than 40..write [im a very bad influence]
If You Have more than 50..write [im a horrible person]
If You Have more than 60..write [i should be in jail]
If You Have more than 70..Write [i should be dead]

TAG: WHOEVER LA

Exhausted

I'm so freaking exhausted.
I know it's over. I know I should make it easier for us and move on.
I'm trying so hard to let go.
But why can't I?

I already know that everything is over.
I'm always telling us that it's impossible to turn back the time.
And be what we used to be.
But why is it that deep inside me, I'm still hoping for some miracle?

I should face the reality.
Accept the fact that it is really impossible.

Each and every arguments that we have.
It's like a stab in the chest.
Every arguments drains out the life in me.
I'm really exhausted.

Sometimes we're happy just like how we once used to be.
But most of the time jealousy, misunderstandings takes over.
When can we stop this game?
Or maybe wait for some miracle? which I know is impossible.