Friday, October 16, 2009

It's different

This time, it's really not like the other fights we always have. This time is serious. I don't know what else to do anymore. I don't know what will happen next. But all I know is if we don't do something about it, there's really no turning back.

Love is not everything. We need to trust, tolerate and understand. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when we talk back about the past. I hate it when we always try to get even.

Tell me. What should I do now? I tried my best. I know you did too. So, what's the real problem?

We both know this is not a healthy relationship. We're pulling each other down instead of encouraging each other to move forward. We're supposed to be cheering each other up when we're down. But instead, we are the reason for all the sad moments we have.

What should I do? Try again? or just simply move on. This was our final chance. Remember? Did we try hard enough? Or if we did, maybe the problem is US. Tell me.. What decision should we make now

Friday, October 2, 2009

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I just want us to be happy. Is it really that hard? This past week.. So many dramas. I bet all the cahayans know about it. Like the slamming door episode. And of course today's episode. Very entertaining huh?

I really tried my best to keep us happy every time. I tried talking to you. Explaining to you. Tried to solve our problems. I thought we did. But why does the issue always come out? Why must you ignore me when I did nothing wrong? You said you love me.. Does your actions show that? By ignoring me just cause you're unhappy. Does it show you love me?

Every time we fought, I will always be emo and angry and cry and ask you to say sorry. That was last time. After those 7 months, I already changed. Most of the time when we fight, I will either keep quiet, manja you, say sorry, or even tried talking to you and stay optimistic. But actually deep inside I'm hurting.

After that, we'll have a heart to heart talk. I'll try to make you understand, you'll try to tell me how you feel. And hope we don't repeat our mistakes.

But.. the next day, the same thing goes on and on and on again. When can it stop?

I promised I won't drop another tear in front of you. Today, I failed. I promised I will never think of giving up. Today, I failed too.

No matter what, I still love you deeply.

Dear, if you're reading this, I just wana say... I'm sorry. Whatever happens, I want you to be happy.

I love you deeply