OMG

OMG OMG OMG OMG!

I'm GONA BURST!

control.. control..

OMG!

I'm FREAKING HAPPY!

Boom Boom Boom Boom

I know I'm suppose to be studying now. But.. let me relax for awhile la.. =D

So, yesterday we had jogathon and basketball. I got 7th for jogathon and blue won yellow for basketball. Even though we're very happy that we won, but still kinda sad because we kinda had a fight with yellow. I hope everything will be normal and forgotten after this weekend la.. Sorry if on the court i accidentally hit you or bang any of you. Levia, the birthday girl got injured badly.. And when she was out we thought we would lose.

BUT.. WE WON! =D

I kena banged and elbowed and fell a few times la.. Luckily nothing serious.

EXAM! *PANIC*

Anyway, last night I had a really weird dream about him. We fought in the dream. Like how we always foguth when we were together la.. Kinda depressing to have that kind of dream again.

Last night somethin else happened la.. And I'm like really confused.. What should I do? or i shouldn't do anything and go with the flow? or should i stop this immediately? hmm.. Whatever la.. After exam only think la..

OKAY BABES! time for me to study study study!

Bang-ing off,
Tenggg~

What a Dayyyy

PHEW... Today was a really stressful day. First 2 periods were PHYSICS.. my god.. STUPID FREAKING PHYSICS!! ARGH! I seriously don't get physics.. Study til damn emo today.. BUT.. i have to have..

POSITIVE THINKING

So, I kept telling myself

"I LOVE PHYSICS!"

What a total lie.. I was almost CRAZY!



Anyway, tomorrow we're gona have JOGATHON and BASKETBALL FINAL.. [OH GOD.. YELLOW]

NO! POSITIVE THINKING!!

hahaha.. okay la.. need to go study. Exam next week.. REcital competition the day before. =O..

WISH ME LUCK!

Bang-ing off,
Tenggg~

GAVE UP

I lost hope.
I gave up.
I lost to fate.

It's time to move on.
It's time to wake up and stop dreaming about something that can never happen.

WAKE UP!

Stressed

OKAYY.. I'm suppose to be studying and doing my homework now. But i just wanted to blog for awhile.

Lately, I'm really busy and stressed. With my band's events, meetings, practices, cheer leading too. And EXAM is NEXT WEEK! Some more the day before ecam i got recital competition in KL from 10am to 4pm. Saturday i have practice as usual from 4.30pm til 10pm. And by the time i reach home from Klang it'll be like 11pm plus sometimes 12am.

OH MY GOD! I hope i can cope with all this.. I must start to pray and chant! MANAGE MY TIME! which is something that is totally impossible for me. I planned to finish all my homework and catch up with all my lessons that i missed because of all those prefect stuff tonight. BUT.. ISH.. I came and blog.

GOSH! WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??

OKAYYY! ENOUGH!

shit.. Now i feel like blogging about what happened on Saturday on cherr leading. NO! CONTROL! next time only write about that..

BANG-ing off,
~Tenggg~

~Valentines~ =D

As you guys know, Feb 14 is Valentines Day. Sadly, this year I'm dateless. =(.. anyway, on Fri i received 5 roses. 3 from Andrew, 1 from Vincent and another one from my Darling Che Ying =D
The roses that we prefects sold was honestly cacated and not nice. Che Ying's rose was from outside. It's damn big, nice and freaking red. AND it's still ALIVE til today.. =D








On Saturday, Andrew gave me a surprise. Not gona tell the details here. It was really touching coz he wrote poems and read it to me when he kneeled down. But.. I just wana be friends with him. The teddy bear was really cute and he even drew something for me. It was the first time seeing his drawing and it was actually quite nice. What he did was really sweet.. There were also a lot of Ferrero Rocher with small little hearts beneath with words. Other details i'll keep it to us.
THANKS DREW!


On Sunday, lamey gave me valentines gift. The roses he folded was 10 with 4 different colours and each with a different meaning. Inside the box rhere was another small box. Inside it there were 3 Ferrero Rocher and a bracelet. Pink-“幸福”, Yellow-“开心”, Green-“青春美丽” and Blue-Emotions. The kite he made actually has a meaning. He said that I'm the one who is controlling the kite. Whether I wana be happy or sad, Its actually for me to decide. The string is in my hand. I'm the one who is suppose to control the kite, the kite is something like my emotions and also life conditions. It actually strucked me, that i shouldn't always be sad because of what is happening, rather i should take it as a challenge and go thru it with a smile. =D
THANKS LAMEY for waking me up.. =)

BANG-ing off,
~Tenggg~

Take me There

THERE...

What place is that?
I really hope that we don't have to be like this.
But what can we do?
I really hope things will turn out differently.
But what can i do?

I'm stucked.
I'm confused.

Will you take me there?
To a place that I don't have to worry about anything.
To a place that i won't have to let go of anything.
I just wana to be happy.
I don't want to hurt anyone.
I just want you to be happy.

That's all I'm asking for..

BANG-ing off,

Tenggg~

5,6,7,8! 1,2 DIP UP!

Wheepie! Had cheerleading practice today! and this time, my lips are safe people! Didn't kena whacked by the elbow like last time. Argh.. nightmare. Went to school and everybody was asking about my bengkak purple lips!

Today my sis and Kaang Yib came to school to watch us. BOY, was freaking glad they came. Kaang Yib gave us ideas for the final formation. We're doing the catapult-tossing-fish-fisherman-catch thingyy.. Haha.. and Zainal is the FISH! We threw him like so freaking far ang high up. He overflew somemore. Us, the cathcers stood there starring up at the sky with our mouth wide open watching our fish fly.. We were shocked.. HAHAHA.. luckily Kaang Yib was at the front to catch him. And Zainal hurt his back when we did it the last time. KESIAN.. hope he's okay la.. We saw red house filming when we did the human fan. Please don't do that la red house.. Film on sport's day la.. Not BEFORE! Thanks for ur cooperation! =D

Hmm.. He was planning something for me. Kinda disappointed when he didn't do it. But its alright.. =)

Kinda lazy to blog d la.. Now having sore throat.. NOOOOOOO!! okay la.. gota chao..

SAYONARA!!

BANG-ing off,
Tenggg~

For you.. =D

This post is specially for my dear twin, LIEW MUN YEE!

LIEW MUN YEE!
LIEW MUN YEE!
LIEW MUN YEE!
LIEW MUN YEE!
LIEW MUN YEE!
LIEW MUN YEE!

=D muahahaha.. happy now? i gota change 3 times to satisfy you.. ISH

Bang-ing off,

Tenggg~

What a camp!

Hey peeps! Ya, i know.. I started blogging again! =D yeah to me! Why did I start a new blog? Hmm.. I guess its just that i need to pour out my feelings. Before I do that, I'll just slowly go thru about the leadership camp on the 6th and 7th of February 2009 in Dusun Eco Park, Pahang.

Well, before that i was in a dilemma on which camp to go to. As i have another PD camp with my fellow block 2's PICs. Sorry peeps that i FFK you! Didn't mean it. Really wanted to go for the PD camp but my dear besties Mun Yee and Syafi begged me to go to the leadership camp. =D anyway, the camp was okayy laa.. Gained some bruises here and there from the stupid obstacle course. But the flying fox was seriously fun. Me and Mun screamed like crazy bitches on the way down.. =D The obstacles was really tough. Me n Syafi were the first females to actually go thru the tyre obstacle course with and without help. =D.. and Syafi couldn't stop bragging about how girls can do guys stuff too. HAHA..

And the toilets.. we showered half nakedly. =D GUYS! DON'T START IMAGINING! hahaha.. Pictures are as below(will upload more when pauline upload the others on her blog..):-

P2-Our Emo Picture

From top left: Vive, Man man, Daus, Me, Mun, Canlian, Pauline, Syafi

Andrew by Cikgu Alias

Farhanna by Cikgu Alias

Retarded PAU!by Cikgu Alias [hope she doesn't read this]=D

Mun and Me on flying fox! by Cikgu Alias

Me and MAN MAN MAN

Kailash and me during installation. [my eyes look so small..=(]
Me and Sopo Mun

BACK TO SERIOUS STUFF

Okayy.. soo.. where to start? oh.. ya.. i had an emotional break down at the night of the camp. Long story.. I just miss him. Its hard for both of us to move on. How to make this easier for us? I really don't know. Do you still care? sometimes i don't think that you do..

I just realised something. Every camp i went to since i came to this school, i cried. And its always because of him. Fought with him billions of times. Just very fed up.. I'll stop talking about him here. Others are kinda personal.. Only my best peeps knows.. =)

Anyway, Valentines is coming.. Almost all of my friends have date. Even those single people have dates.. with the same gender. HAHA!

WILL YOU BE MY VALENTINES? I don't know who is this for.. =D

LAMEY! i promised you.. I will be happy everyday.. If I break the promise, I will go in front of Gohonzon and chant 30 mins. I promise.. You too,k? I just wana thank you for everything.. Thanks for being there for me. And im sorry that my friends misunderstand you. I never blamed you for anything. Jimui forever.. right? I'm lucky to have known you..

To Drew.. I know you're gona read this. for the past 3 yrs, i had great times with you. You taught me a lot of things. You were there for me when i had problems with friends or family. You were always loyal to me. I just wana say that i never once regretted being with you. I don't want you to live in regret and sadness and always think of what went wrong. And always think of what you could have done to change that day. Sometimes, being together doesn't mean its the best choice. You're my best friend too. I already lost you as my lover, I do not want to lose you as my friend. Many people think that we'll go back together. Don't let your hopes go up. I want us to move on. I don't want to ever see you sad anymore. What had happened already happened. Its too late to change anything. Let's move on and leave all those behind as memories.. Good memories.

Well, i guess that's all that I wana say.. for now. =) gota go do my nhr assignment due tonight. Hae Ling is so gona kill me.. =(

BANG-ing off,

Tengggg~~

don't worry be happy.. =D